you don't have to like yourself or your life now, and if there are things you don't like or if you feel alone, well, it must be because of this beautiful unattainable thing.

That sounds disconcertingly plausible. I was not expecting to feel so seen by this damned show.

Here's a fic that I think speaks to some of what you are saying. You might want to get to episode 15 before reading it.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/18819244